Thursday, June 24, 2010

Exercise breakthrough

I am quietly excited or pleased rather, I should say about today. I have found a solution to my exercise regime and all for the princely sum of £5 . I might have to shell out a little more money for replacements but we will take a day at a time.

Today I bought some cheap rackets, balls and shuttlecocks from one of the discount shops and all the boys and I have had some great fun outside in our very modest garden. It was very good exercise for me and I am very grateful for it. On the days where I can't walk, I shall look forward to the wall in our garden and also the washing lines. Until winter time, that is.

Exercise without shelling out a lot of money and spending time with the boys and keeping them away from a screen of sorts each available minute? As I always say miracles happen indeed and the Lord does indeed heed to the cry of his children.

Lord, I thank You for today, Amen.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Back to school

I was off school the whole of last week and it was good to be back to an extent. Everyone seems to like my hair though I don't. I think I am looking overweight, podgy and unattractive and that is because despite my good intentions the weight around my midrib is sticking to me with very great aggression. I am not giving up though and will keep trying to shed off the extra weight.

I have been tidying up around my workspace at home and still need to finish it but I am feeling like I have made progress tonight. And I am feeling more positive than I have felt in a long while. These moods must have no hold over me anymore.
Lord, I thank You for progress today, Amen.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Thank You, Father

A quiet day today and a reflective one and the birthday of a special friend. Have not been able to watch many of the World Cup matches but have been following the scores quite closely.

And somehow I am not looking forward that eagerly to Wimbledon. Am I losing my interest in tennis? No, not at all. It is just because I think the Fed Express is coming to an end and I do not have great expectations of him this time round in this tournament so that has dampened my appetite for Wimbledon this year. At the moment no one quite tickles my fancy at the moment so I will just watch the matches with a sort of mild interest and curiosity. We wait to see who the new king will be.

Thank You, Lord for today, Amen.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Still hopeful

Today has been a mixed day. Got no interesting emails and by that I mean emails from a friend or two but I do owe several responses so I have no right to complain.

Then after putting in a lot of effort to cook, the boys would not eat! Very annoying indeed.

I managed to read one magazine and start a short piece on my reading habits
( sort of) so I guess on that note, I can say I have done some writing.

Lord, help me change my attitude to be that of a positive one always. Thank You, Father for today, Amen.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


Today I devoted most of my time to housework and cooking in the hope of writing tomorrow and I hope to attain that goal. I have also been thinking about a relationship that has gone sour and praying for closure about it because what is happening is very strange.

Well, this evening I mentioned it to a friend and his words have calmed me down a lot and made things quite crystal clear. I have written before that insecurity manifests in very strange ways indeed and sometimes the one who feels insecure will act in a pompous way to belie what he or she really feels inside.

For me, life is too short to indulge in pettiness, backbiting or paying people back if they have behaved in a negative way. It is immature to cut people off without listening to their side of the story unless they have crossed a line of gross disrespect and insulted you in a way that dishonours your person and your integrity.

So I resolve to keep on acting the way the Lord would have me do towards other people. Life is too short to waste it in negativity and insults.

I thank You, my Lord for today and for another opportunity to write. Thank You, Lord for good friends too, Amen.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Still making those baby steps

I haven't been here for a while and very conscious of that in a positive way. I have made some progress with the writing, I believe with  the help of a few simple tools and things are set to get better. The simple tools are a simple timetable for the evening routine and some menus too for the week. Another is choosing a day on which to do particular things.

It's not that I don't know these things but I am finding more and more that it is the implementation of all the mental knowledge that makes the difference indeed. A lot of people know a lot of things but it is those who put things into motion and practice who see the results. Again a lesson that yours truly knows mentally very well but has not done very much with.

Well, I am learning and I have to keep reassessing what I am doing to move forward. A lot of times progress does not chart a straight way forward, but more a crablike path towards the intended goal.

Lord, I thank You for progress, Amen.

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

The right perspective

Today is one of those days when I wish I had my own little apartment to escape to. It seems like I really do have high expectations of myself and when external factors I cannot control disrupt my time I get quite frustrated. I need the answers to work out that part. The kids have just been quite difficult to handle this evening and I just want to go to bed now.

On a positive note though, I managed to do some reading today so it has not been all that disappointing. A day at a time.

Lord, teach me to put things into perspective. Thank You once again for another day.

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Progress made today

Today has been a much better day with a very simple timetable in my journal to help me along the journey of regrouping. I am very grateful for that because I feel like this year I have to have something to show for my efforts by God's grace.
I am very grateful indeed and hope to make even more progress tomorrow.
Thank You, Lord for today, Amen.

Monday, June 07, 2010

Thank You, Lord.

Interesting day today. Regroup tomorrow and make better use of your evening, Nana. It is well with my soul, Amen.

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

A better day

The little lady in the household has been unwell since Sunday and it has affected the whole family because we have had to be at home so she can rest. It has been good in a way because it has granted me the opportunity to catch up with the ( yes, you know it) housework and with my thoughts.

Yesterday was not a very good day but it has been better today. A resolution before going to bed sorted my emotions out. I have to act on the big things I dream about no matter how tiny the steps are. And keep positive constantly and give thanks in all things.

Have to go up early tonight since I have not slept early enough the past few days.
A day at a time and a step at a time with a lot of gratitude to the Lord.
Thank You, Father for today, Amen.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Mercy on me

It has been a strange day and one I would not like to dwell on. All internal stuff that crippled me from afternoon and slowed me down when I had so many hopes and dreams of writing. 
Another day, Lord. Mercy, mercy on me once again.
Thank You for today, Amen.