Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Self-sufficiency

We had a fire last week in the house and we have had to learn to cook and live from day to day and it has not been bad at all apart from having to throw food out which I always feel bad about. Very unfortunate.

The fire started due to an electric fault and it is a lesson in getting things fixed when they need to be fixed and not leaving them until the problem gets worse. We are having to sort out the insurance and it is one whole week since the fire devoured things in the kitchen and nothing seems to be happening or rather things are taking a bit of time.

The strange thing is that when these banks and institutions want money from you, the onslaught is relentless and yet when you need their help, the wheels suddenly get bogged down in mud. We give thanks in all things.

Another lesson I have learnt is why it is so important to be an independent of and self-sufficient individual in whatever kind of business you find yourself in. That way you are reliant on less and less people and you can sort things out with your own resources. One cannot be completely independent of every institution because of the dynamics of today's world, but one can be queen of her own enterprise and rule in her own kingdom and indeed that is what Jesus calls us to be: kings and queens with him.

I do not know exactly how things are going to pan out with my dreams but I pray that my dream to go and have my own enterprise in Ghana will materialize soon and to that end I keep dreaming and praying.

It is a good thing to give thanks unto the Lord indeed, Amen.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Thank You, Lord for today.

It has been a busy day, quite tiring and having to walk in the rain to find an appliance we desperately needed at home. Found it eventually so I was very grateful for that.
It has been raining for the past two days and I think we can say that summer is truly over. One lives in hope for a few sunny days before the winter is here.
In all things we give thanks, O Lord, Amen.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Scotland

Edinburgh was a revelation and I don't know what you call someone who loves Scotland but I am definitely one now. I loved the whole ambience and atmosphere of the place and the people too. There was this understatedness that was so refreshing to come across. Two days is too short to form an opinion but not too short to fall in love. I am in love. With Scotland and its people.
Thank You, Lord for the opportunity to travel, Amen.

Thank You, Lord for today, Amen.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Writing room

Today I had to take the boys out again and I am not too sure whether my tolerance levels have dropped with their noise and entropy or they have become a bit more unruly and boisterous. I really am looking forward to having a room of my own to work in one day, and only the little lady will be allowed to come in and even then, by invitation only.

Lord, keep me hoping and believing You for a writing study and room of my own; I would be ever so grateful but before then, help me share my space with the kids in peace, Amen.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Today is another day

Yesterday I took the boys and their friends to the Science Museum and I think they enjoyed it very much. Came back deliciously tired and very satisfied with the day; also very grateful for the strength to make it through the day.

Today has been mixed; was not too happy with the level of writing but not going to get bogged down by it. Played Scrabble again with Son no. 3 who completely thrashed me. I have lost to him six times in a row which implies his leap in form, which thrills me or just a run of bad games for me. Whatever the case, it has given me time with him and the others are slowly trying to love the game.

Lord, help me be constantly aware of You whatever I find myself doing and wherever I find myself.

Thank You, Lord for today, Amen.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Feeling better and better

It has been quite a day, but feeling quite well today and seems like the nasty cold is on its way out now. Finally. I have not done much writing today but it has been a satisfactory day because I played Scrabble with the boys and also did quite a bit of cooking. Feeling very happy about that because it means I can rest tomorrow.

I am grateful for each new day because it offers the opportunity to refocus on things. I am going to be brave tomorrow and take them into Central London tomorrow. Life is about memories for these kids and one has to do the best one can to give them many positive memories.

Lord, sufficient unto the day.... I commit the night into Your Hands and pray for edifying dreams, Amen.

Thank You, Lord for today, Amen.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Thank God for healing, Amen

It has been a difficult few weeks health-wise because of a nasty cold. I finally feel as if it is nearing its end and its hold on me and I am very grateful for that. It has taken a lot out of me in an insidious way, because I can't say it has made me ill but it has made me feel very weak indeed.
Today I feel quite good and I am very grateful. One has to believe in the Word of God and declare it always. By the stripes of Jesus, I am healed, Amen.
Thank You, Father for today, Amen.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Another chance

I am going to keep this very short since I am literally falling asleep now. Glad and grateful for this week because I feel like I have been given another opportunity to get my act going with the writing. I have been doing bits and pieces here and there, but this week I honestly feel a freedom and a fluidity in me and a lack of pressure to write for publication.

Not by might, nor by power, but by the Spirit of the living God indeed will I get anything done or published.

Thank You, Lord for another chance, Amen.

Sunday, August 08, 2010

An unsatisfactory ending

I just finished reading a book by Robin Pilcher and though it was very good, somehow it left me feeling a bit flat. I am a romantic at heart so I love to read about love stories and that is why I love reading Sandra Brown novels so much. The main protagonists in this story I just finished do not get together and rightly so because they are both happily married. So as an writer, how would I change the story? That is the question.

One thing I did appreciate about it though was the resolution that takes place between the two characters who parted under such strange and difficult circumstances. Closure. It is one the things I most seek in a relationship that has gone funny in my own life. How can one make good what one is unaware of? As a Christian, I know I must live in peace with all men and that is what I strive to do as much as it is dependent on me.

Thank You, Lord for closures in my life and wisdom to do the right thing, Amen.

Friday, August 06, 2010

Prayer time

I just got back this morning from the weekly meeting I attend for my spiritual growth and well-being. Stayed for the prayer meeting and confess that I slept for part of the meeting because I was so tired but enjoyed it a lot because I haven't gone for a meeting like that in ages. I want to be part of something that is bigger than me. A revival in the UK.

I have always been blessed with the most beautiful of friends and to think that the leader of the group is a friend is quite humbling. I admire her in so many ways and can see how much my life has changed since I got to know her.
Lord, help me keep my eyes on You all the time like she demonstrated during the meeting last night. My emotions should not lead me at all, Your Word should be my all. And help me listen out to what the Spirit is telling me each day and each moment and help me appropriate Your wisdom that You so freely give us all the time.

Lord, in Your mercy, hear my prayer, Amen.

Thursday, August 05, 2010

Financial discipline

It has been a busy day, a bit tiring because I had to take the boys out for a writing event and do some shopping. I have been thinking about a few foolish decisions I have made about my finances during the past few weeks and the reasons behind my poor choices. I haven't come to any enlightening conclusions except to say to myself that I must never put myself under such pressure ever again. It makes no sense at all.

I must say that I was very astute today with my shopping and did my best to restrain myself. A few treats for the boys that were unplanned but nothing major to cause me great grief. Lord, I know I need a lot more discipline but like I have already prayed in faith and in all humility, I do need a raise in my income to make things balance on a monthly basis. And with You, all things are possible indeed.

I am grateful once again for today and for this gift of writing that allows me to express my innermost desires and needs. Lord, in Your Name, hear my prayer.

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

Another day of progress

I tried the tennis again yesterday and I am pleased to report that I did note some progress and even woke up today with no aches and pains. And I managed to run to retrieve some of the balls even! Very good progress indeed.

Today I have also managed to do some writing and also read around the writing which always thrills me very much and there is this quiet feeling of satisfaction in my heart about the whole day. Talked to a friend about her son and encouraged her to keep doing her best for him and invest in his education.

I am still striving to become a better person and thank You, Lord for Your grace that is sufficient for each day.

Thank You, Father for a very good day indeed, Amen.

Monday, August 02, 2010

Tennis and me

I took the boys to the tennis courts today and suffice it to say that I could barely run after a ball when I had the opportunity to swing a racket. I just have to stop tormenting myself with the lean, mean image and do the best that I can every day. No point stressing about it at all; I will eat as healthily as I can and get some exercise done when I can fit it in. Life is too short to worry about the trivial stuff.
I am grateful for today once again, Lord and I thank You for another opportunity to do regroup again. Thank You, Jesus for today, Amen.